Abnormal

I can't ever just be fucking normal.
If I could, i would have.
I knew that I should have.
I tried to be yours, but I
Know that I'm no one.
I wish I could throw up.
Now I'm shattering this mirror.
Oh, I'm only brave.
There's a churning in my gut.
I'm still spinning,
Homesick inside of the earth.
There are grounds that I'll
Push and cane and kicking gravel,
Kicking rocks that pop back.
And I fall over, I trip,